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Filmed my last task for my pathology class today. I'm hoping it's passable; I'll be spending the weekend getting the editing done and the jump drive ready to mail to my prof. Fingers crossed, I'll get out of this class with a passing video and my sanity intact.

My goddaughter's birthday party was last weekend, but her 1st birthday is Saturday. Not sure what I'll wind up doing, but I imagine when I start to lose my grip on reality, I'll head over there with a small gift.

I've felt some vague desire to write the last few days. Not SGA, but NCIS: someone going over to Gibbs' house, finding the door locked and peering through a window to see a new TV secured to the wall with an array of kids' toys on the floor. New couch, baby gates, etc. I think my brain has latched onto all the 'Gibbs raises Tony' stories and turned it into a more... canon compliant Gibbs/Tony + Tali. Then I pull out a scrap of paper while I do the records scanning at work (scanner is in the kennel and out of sight of my coworkers) and my brain goes, "Erm, maybe later." Frustrating, that, but it might come spilling out once the stress of the semester is over.

As for fic, I've had the attention span of a pez candy this week and haven't read much, let alone written. We'll see what Saturday brings, but I have gotten back to commenting on the fic prompt comms I follow. I try to remember to check the LJ app before morning appointments; I'm going to have to remember to charge up the Kindle so I can have it for my lunch break. (Which... anyone have some book recs? I've been re-reading Abraham Lincoln Vampire Hunter when I can get myself to focus.)

Chester... I'm still feeling sad when I think about him, still not interested in listening to anything but Linkin Park on repeat. That, too, has been why I'm having trouble getting focused. But I know, as with the time after my brother passed, it ebbs.

I'm Back

20 May 2017 08:00 pm
aivix: (Default)
After taking the intervening time between semesters for myself, I have returned to LJ/DW and will hopefully get my butt back to writing in the next few days.

What did I do in that interim period? I went to the March for Science in NYC on a rather drizzly day and participated in a color run with my friend K; I bought a ridiculously overpriced hair dryer and dyed my hair a lovely red-violet color that my boss has yet to comment on (*snerk*). I don't know if I'll be keeping this color or going for a deeper purple, but I'm enjoying it.

I went to free comic book day up in Massachusetts with my close friend B, where several young men stared at us wide-eyed because girls were in a comic book store which entertained us to no end. I learned that day that there are, in fact, Batman Beyond comics and got some level of judgement from the guys who run the shop for purchasing 2 of the Stargate: Atlantis comics from the Kickstarter campaign. I almost left with a Hawkeye Hot Toy. Instead, I saved the money and have since started collecting some of the Aquaman merch that I find on clearance. I now have a cute little Aquaman Dorbz to sit with my Funko POP! Maui and a plush Aquaman that I will likely have to constantly steal back from the cats!

There was a trip to Florida with the niece & nephew. For the record, after 30 years, I should know better than to go into EPCOT without a water bottle: I dehydrated, overheated, and threw up on a Cast Member. The sunburn I got that day could have guided in planes and took a week to calm down enough I could throw my purse strap on it. Upside, I got to ride the new Frozen ride in Disney and can legitimately say I hate that they replaced Maelstrom with it.

My new semester starts Monday, and I'll be re-taking the class that the video didn't pass as well as emergency procedures. If I can pass it this time, I'll be on track to graduate after the fall semester. I'm crossing my fingers that I can start videotaping this week after work and have it submitted well before the due date. If I can do that, it'll give me time to correct any videos that she finds fault with.

I'm going to try to catch up on the flist, but how have you all been? :)
aivix: (Default)
The last month... wow. In the last four weeks:

1. I found out I failed a video for one of my classes and had to withdraw or take an F. I withdrew to save from tanking my GPA.

Doing a distance program (don't know if I've mentioned that in the past), I have to videotape myself doing specific AVMA indicated tasks to prove I can do them. The major problem being... we don't do several of these tasks at my facility, like, oh, incubating agar plates or cross-matching blood. The first time I did most of them was FOR the video which is definitely not the best. I still worked my ass off for it, getting sick halfway through the tasks and had to wear a mask to avoid vomiting when working with cat poop. I am not looking forward to doing them all again this summer, but at least I got some practice at it and some direction from the professor.

2. I worked my ass off on a major project plus video for Radiology and this one, I passed. I got an 85% and wish I'd gotten better, but I know part of my problem is collimating. I also was working with cats and for those who have not had a cat or do not know what cats are like, my cats who I have had since they were 4 week old kittens, who will let me handpill them--I can stick my fingers in their throats if I have to--and do things like give them injections and pretty much string them up by the toes, were fighting me tooth, claw, and scream to not be put on their side for a MINUTE. Seriously, I might have to upload the video of Ianto screaming like I was killing him.

So, 85%, but I accept my faults and I really can't get too upset because I passed. (Okay, I can because I am kind of Type A when it comes to my schoolwork.)

3. And now I'm sick again. After 2 visits to Urgent Care, Wednesday & this morning, I finally feeling better. I was told at the first visit that it was just an upper respiratory, even though I thought I had bronchitis; he gave me some prescription cough suppressant pills and told me to rest and keep up on fluids. I added in lysine, set up my humidifier, and tried to get more sleep. I got worse instead and nearly went to the ER last night, so today went back.

I have bronchitis, made worse by an asthma attack I didn't realize I was having, and now my ears are in on the game. I walked into the exam room with an SPO2 of 92% and they immediately gave me a nebulizer treatment followed by chest x-rays, a steroid shot, and then called in prescriptions for more steroids and antibiotics. I bought a second humidifier, this one a warm mist, and around 5:30 tonight after my 2nd shower today, I actually feel human.

Now that I can sit up and not want to pass out because I can't oxygenate, I'm holding off on studying for finals until Sunday and playing video games and writing instead. I've got 11 prompts open in tabs and I'd like to fill at least three or four tomorrow. I did start on one kink prompt I've been percolating over, so that might be posted in a little while.

Tonight, however, I'm watching some old MasterChef episodes and then playing a few more levels of Lego Marvel Superheroes or starting Mass Effect Andromeda.
aivix: (Sleep Nao)
While I'm not ready (in any way) for this semester to start, it's a good thing I'm getting back into the thick of it. One of my coworkers fractured her elbow and has been unable to do much with her arm because of the pain (why do human doctors give us ibuprofen and think that's enough?), so I've been getting plenty of training in as I've had to be tech and assistant. There was one day that I was putting IV catheters in every patient since our other tech was tied up with a dental, another where I was drawing blood like a champ. And tomorrow I'll be doing anything and everything that I'm comfortable with as we've got a too-full procedure schedule.

Downside: I've had a headache for 36 hours and neither NSAIDs nor my migraine meds have done more than take the edge off. Hopefully, this won't interfere too much.

My Skyfall kick is seeming to turn into a bit of remembering why I loved Bond/Q. I've rewatched the movie a few times now and been going through various rec lists of fic. I don't feel like I have a good grip on Bond's character, so I don't know if I'll be writing any. But, well, it's possible that I may have few thoughts on fusing elements into an AU with one of the fandoms I'm vastly more comfortable with. We'll see.

I discovered a community on DW similar to [ profile] comment_fic called [community profile] fic_promptly. I figure if I'm going to broaden my horizons with the journal sites, I might as well try to find comms I'm interested in hanging out at fic-wise. If only there were more kink memes.
aivix: (Coffee & Writing)
When you're exhausted, at least. Everyday has pretty much been an exercise in how much I can do before I collapse for the night, but I'm in the home stretch of finishing out my diploma so I'm trying not to get upset about how little time I've got for anything else right now. See friends? Nope, homework. Do some writing? Nope, homework. Go to a play with my family? Okay, but then homework.

Of course, I did get to go to Chicago Con, so there was a bright spot. The post for that is still to be done (oops), but, well, I met several awesome people and got to get pictures and autographs from some of my favorite actors from the franchise. Kind of sad that it was the last one, but I'm hoping it was the last one the way some of the older bands have farewell tours. I might go to the con in Vancouver next year though.

I signed up for the SGA Secret Santa this year and have been trying to come up with an idea for my giftee based off their wants. I think I finally hit on one, though I did think it up while under the influence of a rum and coke so we'll see if in a week I'm moaning about stupidity and what was I thinking? Hopefully it'll be good though since I don't have anything else that would fit. Anyone else on my flist doing it this year? Just curious where people are writing wise.

Related to writing, I've got about a dozen open tabs with prompts from [ profile] comment_fic and four for [ profile] avengerkink. I'm a day behind on posts for the former too, so I'm praying that I can catch up on Wednesday when I get a day off from work. I'd like to have a day to get some of these prompts off my screen, so fingers crossed, I can get ahead on homework in the morning and can devote the rest of the day to writing. (TBH, I might just bring my computer to work Monday & Tuesday and write on my lunch break too. It's a bit strange when I do that though--I'm always paranoid my boss is going to walk over while I'm writing something dirty. I will be able to reply to the comments I've been left, however, so there's a plus.)

So close!

21 Sep 2016 09:13 pm
aivix: (Rodney & Arthur)
We are t-minus 5 hours until I need to be awake again in order to get to the airport for Chicago Con and what am I doing? I'm finally getting the chance to go on LJ.

This semester is wiping the floor with me: Med Care and Nursing are okay, but Pathology is just kicking my ass from one side of the room to another. I'm a terrible visual learner-I need to have my hands on something to really understand-and Path is all "What cell is this? What stage of estrus is this? If you have more than 50% Leukocytes on a slide, what does it indicate?" and damned if I'm not having just a lovely time with that. /sarcasm I just keep reminding myself that I only have one semester left after this.

Thankfully, this weekend will be a chance to relax and unwind a little, though I might do a little homework while I'm there just to try to keep ahead of the curve. I'm bringing my copy of the crowdfunded SGA comicbook for everyone to sign, K is bringing her S1 Official Companion, and we're planning to purchase a few more photo tickets and autographs when we get down. Ahhh, so excited!

I'm also hoping that unwinding means I can get some writing done since that has quite honestly stopped since Pathology really got going. I have several unfinished fills for [ profile] comment_fic and a 3-part story I started in November of '15 that is only half done.
aivix: (Work)
My best friend had her daughter last week, 7lbs 4oz, and the quietest baby I've ever met. She even beats her brother, who barely ever made a peep! Almost makes me wish I had kids of my own. Almost.

But that's part of why I haven't been around the last few days: Baby D was born 2:32am and less than 12 hours later, D had to have a transfusion as her hematocrit had dropped to 5%. (The threshold in people and animals for transfusion is 12%, normal can be up to 50% depending on several factors including gender.) So I've been spending a lot of time with D and baby D, trying to help her out as best I can.

The other thing that's had me tied in knots this week... school. Thank God, this semester is over.

Grades are posted tomorrow, but I already know that I got A's and B's in everything. I swear, if I had booze, I'd celebrate it until I had alcohol poisoning. I don't think I've ever had this much anxiety from schoolwork before. But then, when I was younger, I could have given 2 fucks about my grades, while now I want those A's and I work my ass off for them. I want my GPA as high as I can get it and I like being able to say that I'm an A student where growing up, my teachers considered me a top student despite my sometimes terrible grades.

That said, my next semester starts August 22nd, so I only have 2 weeks to laze around and enjoy my break. I intend to make the most of it, though: I have prompts to work on, craft projects to finish, and fish tank maintenance to take care of. I'm hoping to do a lot of the first on the list since I haven't even had time this last week to do more than peruse the prompts on [ profile] comment_fic and post a few via the lj app when the boss wasn't looking, and I have several ideas for the various universes that I'd really like to get on the screen.
aivix: (Head Explode)
Is it possible to feel one's brain oozing out of their ears? If so, huh, I wondered what that feeling was. If not, I might be losing what few braincells I have left.

Thankfully, though, I only have a few days more for videotaping for school and then my brain might resume acting like a brain and form rational thought. Because I honestly feel like I make no sense lately, and has been making me trash a lot of writing out of terror that it sounds idiotic.

I have told myself that I need to do more writing and aim to write at least one fill a day on any of the memes/comment communities. I haven't met that goal every day but I feel like I'm back more toward where I was at the beginning of the month before school took over every nook and cranny of my life. And I have gotten some writing done on the SGA AU fic I've been working on for almost a year, so that's a win. (Seriously, I've got part one of a three-part fic completed, but the second has me stalled while I try to figure out how to modify a ha'tak engine.

Now I feel like a fucking ultranerd.)

Also, dyed my hair a very vibrant purple instead of my usual darker tone and oh my god, no. I look no unlike some sort of party balloon. It's a little bit sad because I loved the color, too, until it was on my own head. Teach me to change from the norm!
aivix: (Work)
I've lost my mind to school. :/ This semester is a little more daunting than previously as I must now start videotaping myself to send back to my instructors. (My program is a long-distance one--all my hands-on learning is done at my workplace with online classes for lecture.)

Seriously, I have prompts open and a word document, but I start to write something and "VIDEO IS DUE JULY 8TH" pops into my head. Which has actually led me to go to work after hours to do homework and start doing the videos that don't require a live patient or someone to help me.

So, um, yeah, if I'm around, but not filling/writing/posting much, it's school murdering my brain.
aivix: (Birds)
What I Should Be Doing: Homework. Or, alternately, filling a couple of prompts I've been hoarding.

What I Am Doing: Watching The Martian under the cooling breeze of my AC.

Because when the clinic AC is on the fritz and the entirety of the staff is sweltering at ~85 degrees in the middle of the closed-in treatment room, coming home to an equally hot apartment is more than this girl can handle. I do honestly try to not use the AC before mid-June/early-July, but I caved today and asked Dad to help me get the unit in the window.

The installation is just in time to make sure my cats don't bake while I'm gone for the weekend--Florida bound for the birthday--since apparently, we have a heat wave. I know it's always hot as hell over Memorial Day weekend but it was 83 degrees in my door-closed, black-out-curtains-closed 200sq studio apartment at 6pm. Which also makes me worry about how hot it's going to be at the condo. :/ A secret: I hate snow, but I hate humidity even more and when combined with the high temps down there, I have a feeling that I'll be spending a lot of the weekend in a pool or in air conditioned places.

At least, if I'm inside, though, I'm likely to have my laptop with me and able to do some writing. In between more homework.

One day I'll be done with school. One day.
aivix: (Work)
I register for next semester tomorrow which means I am so incredibly close to being done with school. *does happy dance* I can't wait. It's taken so long doing it part-time, that I felt kind of like I might always have one more class. But no! I can finally see the finish line.

Thank fuck.

Of course, by the same token, I have been having horrendous panic attacks about the fact that this semester I have to do some videotaping. :/ I know I can do everything the professors want, but still... my anxiety is ramped up already.

I'm definitely going to have to focus and channel that anxiety into writing.

F. M. L.

31 Mar 2016 09:21 pm
aivix: (Work)
Today, I fainted in surgery. In front of my boss. And my preceptor.

THIS IS MY LIFE. *facepalms repeatedly*


4 Mar 2016 08:20 pm
aivix: (Writing)
Been home sick for the better part of the week, not what I wanted-I was almost into overtime-but with the way the weather's been lately, I think it surprises no one around me that I managed to catch the office virus which was then compounded by a sinus infection.

Upside, I've spent the time I wasn't passed out or puking to fill some prompts on [ profile] comment_fic and picked a new layout. I've still got to work on putting tags into the metadata, but for the most part I like it. I probably should have done some homework in there somewhere, but even at 30, I feel that puking automatically gives you a reason to procrastinate on that. I'll probably spend the weekend working on it instead. :/

Oh, who am I kidding? I'm going to spend the weekend writing fic and then cram all my homework in to Sunday afternoon. Terrifyingly I'm getting straight As and this is not the first time this semester than I'm cramming all of my homework into one evening. I think my entire collegiate career was completed in the same way.


stargate: atlantis
john/rodney • john/rodney/carson • rodney/carson • john/elizabeth

clint/phil • tony/bruce

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