aivix: (Hedwig)
2017-07-20 06:32 pm
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Chester Bennington

I've come to one conclusion in my life over music: it is powerful. It brings back memories that are painful and wonderful, it provides a soundtrack to my days... it gives me inspiration when I write. And I feel many people feel the same, cherishing bands and songs that remain special to them.

So I hope that it's not weird when I say that I am devastated by Chester Bennington's death. Linkin Park is a standby in my life, the only band that I adore every track on their albums and something I listen to in good times and bad. Somewhere I Belong is burned in my memory from my senior year of undergrad; What I've Done gets played every time I have a terrible day at work. I can belt out Nobody's Listening and Faint without thinking, and I still know the track listings of Hybrid Theory, Reanimation, and Meteora.

I feel strange as I admit I'm feel sadness over the passing of someone I didn't know or have any relation to, but I realize I do feel loss. Perhaps because he, in a way, was there with the music that (oddly, I know) gave me comfort when I was at the height of my ED, in the last terrible year of High School, and when my brother died and I was grieving him. I had just talked about going to an LP concert, too, looking forward to potentially taking a day off in August to see the band perform in NYC.

In the very least, I hope his family and his friends will find some level of comfort in knowing the fans grieve him too. And tomorrow I'll make a donation to the Suicide Prevention Lifeline and to TWLOHA.

Rest well, Chester. May you have found peace at last.
aivix: (Writing)
2017-06-04 05:32 pm
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A few comment_fic fills.

Done over the last few days:

1. Stargate SG-1, Sam Carter/Jack O'Neill, Twenty Percent More Awesome
Stargate Multiverse, Sam Carter/Jack O'Neill + The Boys. Deaged AU.

2. seaQuest DSV, ensemble, trapped on land during a violent storm
Stargate: Atlantis/seaQuest DSV, Ensemble.

3. Stargate Multiverse Astronaut AU, Rodney McKay/John Sheppard, when your sick boyfriend is 250 miles away...straight up in space
Stargate Multiverse, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay. NASA AU.

4. Any Sci-fi fandom, Any, God is an Astronaut
Stargate Multiverse, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay. NASA AU.

Nothing too long, just easing back in. :)
aivix: (Default)
2017-05-20 08:00 pm

I'm Back

After taking the intervening time between semesters for myself, I have returned to LJ/DW and will hopefully get my butt back to writing in the next few days.

What did I do in that interim period? I went to the March for Science in NYC on a rather drizzly day and participated in a color run with my friend K; I bought a ridiculously overpriced hair dryer and dyed my hair a lovely red-violet color that my boss has yet to comment on (*snerk*). I don't know if I'll be keeping this color or going for a deeper purple, but I'm enjoying it.

I went to free comic book day up in Massachusetts with my close friend B, where several young men stared at us wide-eyed because girls were in a comic book store which entertained us to no end. I learned that day that there are, in fact, Batman Beyond comics and got some level of judgement from the guys who run the shop for purchasing 2 of the Stargate: Atlantis comics from the Kickstarter campaign. I almost left with a Hawkeye Hot Toy. Instead, I saved the money and have since started collecting some of the Aquaman merch that I find on clearance. I now have a cute little Aquaman Dorbz to sit with my Funko POP! Maui and a plush Aquaman that I will likely have to constantly steal back from the cats!

There was a trip to Florida with the niece & nephew. For the record, after 30 years, I should know better than to go into EPCOT without a water bottle: I dehydrated, overheated, and threw up on a Cast Member. The sunburn I got that day could have guided in planes and took a week to calm down enough I could throw my purse strap on it. Upside, I got to ride the new Frozen ride in Disney and can legitimately say I hate that they replaced Maelstrom with it.

My new semester starts Monday, and I'll be re-taking the class that the video didn't pass as well as emergency procedures. If I can pass it this time, I'll be on track to graduate after the fall semester. I'm crossing my fingers that I can start videotaping this week after work and have it submitted well before the due date. If I can do that, it'll give me time to correct any videos that she finds fault with.

I'm going to try to catch up on the flist, but how have you all been? :)
aivix: (Constitution)
2017-04-22 09:30 am
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Off to the Science March

I have a double sided sign, a warm sweater, and my duck boots. Let's get scientific. ❤️
aivix: (Default)
2017-03-31 05:58 pm

The Rollercoaster is Slowing Down

The last month... wow. In the last four weeks:

1. I found out I failed a video for one of my classes and had to withdraw or take an F. I withdrew to save from tanking my GPA.

Doing a distance program (don't know if I've mentioned that in the past), I have to videotape myself doing specific AVMA indicated tasks to prove I can do them. The major problem being... we don't do several of these tasks at my facility, like, oh, incubating agar plates or cross-matching blood. The first time I did most of them was FOR the video which is definitely not the best. I still worked my ass off for it, getting sick halfway through the tasks and had to wear a mask to avoid vomiting when working with cat poop. I am not looking forward to doing them all again this summer, but at least I got some practice at it and some direction from the professor.

2. I worked my ass off on a major project plus video for Radiology and this one, I passed. I got an 85% and wish I'd gotten better, but I know part of my problem is collimating. I also was working with cats and for those who have not had a cat or do not know what cats are like, my cats who I have had since they were 4 week old kittens, who will let me handpill them--I can stick my fingers in their throats if I have to--and do things like give them injections and pretty much string them up by the toes, were fighting me tooth, claw, and scream to not be put on their side for a MINUTE. Seriously, I might have to upload the video of Ianto screaming like I was killing him.

So, 85%, but I accept my faults and I really can't get too upset because I passed. (Okay, I can because I am kind of Type A when it comes to my schoolwork.)

3. And now I'm sick again. After 2 visits to Urgent Care, Wednesday & this morning, I finally feeling better. I was told at the first visit that it was just an upper respiratory, even though I thought I had bronchitis; he gave me some prescription cough suppressant pills and told me to rest and keep up on fluids. I added in lysine, set up my humidifier, and tried to get more sleep. I got worse instead and nearly went to the ER last night, so today went back.

I have bronchitis, made worse by an asthma attack I didn't realize I was having, and now my ears are in on the game. I walked into the exam room with an SPO2 of 92% and they immediately gave me a nebulizer treatment followed by chest x-rays, a steroid shot, and then called in prescriptions for more steroids and antibiotics. I bought a second humidifier, this one a warm mist, and around 5:30 tonight after my 2nd shower today, I actually feel human.

Now that I can sit up and not want to pass out because I can't oxygenate, I'm holding off on studying for finals until Sunday and playing video games and writing instead. I've got 11 prompts open in tabs and I'd like to fill at least three or four tomorrow. I did start on one kink prompt I've been percolating over, so that might be posted in a little while.

Tonight, however, I'm watching some old MasterChef episodes and then playing a few more levels of Lego Marvel Superheroes or starting Mass Effect Andromeda.
aivix: (Atlantis Gate)
2017-02-27 05:55 am

Downtime Finally

The semester started in January and I have to admit, this time around, I am a horrible procrastinator. Normally I work ahead, so that I don't have to panic over tests or assignments, but I think because the video for Clin Path is wiping the floor with me, my anxiety has transmuted into apathy. I'm still chugging along, thankfully, but this is why I've been MIA from DW/LJ for the last few weeks.

I am, however, halfway done with my video and I'm actually doing B-level work in A&P (which I'll take despite wanting an A), so I can finally divert my attention from "WHAT THE HELL IS THAT CELL?" to fandom again. I should probably focus on my apartment some, but, well...

Unfortunately, I won't be making the Romancing McShep deadline. I do plan to hold onto the prompts and continue working on the fills until I can eventually post them to AO3, but with tomorrow being the final posting day, I won't make it. But I do have fills of the [livejournal.com profile] comment_fic kind:

Deaged AU (Jack/Sam, The boys)
Any, Any, Magic Dance (David Bowie)
Author's Choice, any ensemble, arguing over who gets to pick the film for group movie night
Stargate Atlantis, Rodney McKay, despite his preference for airline food and MREs, he's actually quite proficient in the kitchen

NASA AU (John/Rodney)
Stargate Atlantis, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay, Rodney taking care of sick John

Before I Sleep AU (Past John/Rodney, John & Rodney)
Stargate Multiverse, Any,

The distance is what’s killing me
Time and space have become the enemy

(Hot Chelle Rae)


Lemony AU (John/Rodney)
Stargate Atlantis, Sheppard/McKay, kitchen staff didn't notify of lemon in the food

Post-Series (John/Rodney)
Stargate Atlantis, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay,

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

(Snow Patrol)


MCU (Steve/Bucky)
Marvel Cinematic Universe, Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, You Are My Once In A Lifetime

Skyfall (James Bond/Q)
Any, Any m/m, "And... and much as it grieves me to say it, it... it might be that the people I love is, in fact... you."
aivix: (Atlantis Gate)
2017-02-20 04:39 pm
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Fic: All That We Lost (We'll Find), Implied polyamory. Condemned AU.

Title: All That We Lost (We'll Find)
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Rating: Teen
Pairing(s): None stated, but implied polyamory.
Summary: Leave no man behind was forgotten by the IOA.
Tags: s2e05 "Condemned" AU.

All That We Lost (We'll Find) )
aivix: (Coffee & Writing)
2017-02-12 09:54 am
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Happy Birthday, Nagi!

Many happy birthday wishes to [livejournal.com profile] nagi_schwarz. Thank you for the amazing fic you write and I hope you have a wonderful day. <3
aivix: (Constitution)
2017-01-29 03:55 pm
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Political post ahead

I've been pretty much MIA the last week and it's mainly due to the insanity currently gripping my country. My twitter is all politics all the time (sorry to anyone looking for fandom stuff) and my FB is basically a battleground between my pro-Trump Uncle and I. I've been unable to take my attention from either one of those to focus on anything fandom-related and I apologize since it means I immediately fail in some of my resolutions to write more.

Apparently, being enraged and terrified by what's happening lends itself to writer's block.

I've sending money left and right to places like Planned Parenthood and the ACLU. Mom and I have been watching livestreams of the protests in Orlando and Boston while making our signs for NYC and talking about how the country is on figurative fire, what this means for the future, and the fact that after a lifetime of idolizing MLK Jr, FDR, TR, Washington, and Jefferson, I'm not going to flee for Canada (or Scotland as my friend A demands) but I'm going to stand and fight. My father, of course, wanted me to understand that things are going to get worse before they get better--he watched it during the 60s & 70s re: civil rights & Vietnam--and I told him that I expect it because this is only the first week: These cowards are only getting started.

That said, I'm not sure what's going to happen in the coming weeks. I may be on more as I need breaks from reality, I may be on less as I get my ass to more marches, I may be on the exact same amount. Hopefully in the very least, since I always have homework to do, I'll be able to get some fills/writing done in between moments of cursing at my computer because I've been stumped by yet another anatomy & physiology question.
aivix: (Coffee & Writing)
2017-01-22 07:45 pm
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Random Post is Random

Political related stuff. )

And then there's this app I found. )

I did 2 fills today on [livejournal.com profile] comment_fic. One HP (Harry/Hermione/Draco), one SG Multiverse (Deaged AU). I've got a few more prompts I'd like to get something written for this week, plus some additional work on the 007 AU. I still need to look at the [livejournal.com profile] romancingmcshep prompts for something additional to work on (also back up in case the AU does to me what Catalyst did to me last year and turns into a monster that I barely finished on time).

I've slowed down posting prompts a bit, which I blame on how tired I was last week from work. I intend to get back in the habit this week since things look like they'll be a bit better: one of our vets is on a month-long vacation to Australia & New Zealand and there's only so much covering the other two vets can do, so like as not, we'll have the opportunity to take days off/leave early. It'll give me time for the comm and for homework which I definitely will need this semester.

Follow up on cats: strawberry mint tea when sapped out of a rug onto a towel with white stripes looks like cat pee and smells just enough like it to question your sanity. Both of my terrors (boy & girl) are fine, thankfully, despite having a mama who can be tricked by tea.
aivix: (Coffee & Writing)
2017-01-19 09:02 pm

Patently ignoring tomorrow's significance and posting about everything else

I got home tonight after a relatively decent day--three cats in the kennel, but 2 are post-spays and docile enough to handle; 1 is a medical case and I've been calling him an angry panther--to realize that this morning's poke in the eye might actually be an abrasion. My eye hurts and I just want to keep rubbing it, so hopefully if it's not ragingly painful in the AM, I can snatch a bottle of triple antibiotic eye drops from our supply and give a rest from the contacts for a few days.

I was actually looking for my slightly older bottle of triple drops when I discovered that one of the cats peed on a towel I'd left on the floor in the bathroom. This normally would have been an annoyance, but it was a towel that has intermittent white stripes and they were decidedly pinkish/red so someone has bloody pee. Given that they're both acting a little clingy it's hard to judge who it was; I may end up bringing both of them to work tomorrow, God help me. O.O

[livejournal.com profile] comment_fic has had a few prompts that have revived the Raising Sons & Vivat Rex AUs. Foiled by Thermodynamics even had another fill to it, though I'm not anticipating as much added to that as the others. I added them to the Master Posts, and spent part of last night uploading Vivat Rex to AO3. While the MP for that one is in timeline order, the AO3 is chaptered by the dates I wrote/posted each one. I'm torn about doing the same for Raising Sons.

The Prompts List for Romancing McShep is up. Yay! I'm looking forward to browsing through this year's suggestions to see if I can come up with something more than my 007 AU idea. I'd like something more Canon-compliant since I know AUs are not everyone's cup of tea. (I personally blame the Harlequin challenge from years and years ago for my love of the genre. Because seriously, there was a fic where John was a horse rancher and Rodney was a vet and I still think about it.)

Also on my mind: an SG kink meme. I'm contemplating starting one up because Kink Memes are what kept me writing after I left SGA fandom and I still adore them. ST, Thor, Avengers... I enjoyed every interaction I had on them, good and bad, and continue to fill prompts on the Avengers one when I get the urge. If I decide to pursue it, I'll definitely be doing an interest post first--I tried running an SG KM years ago (the comm might still be on LJ, actually. It is. I deleted the fucking mod account and never transferred ownership. I wonder how I go about reclaiming it since the mod account was purged. :/ ) but I don't think we got more than a handful of fills.
aivix: (Q)
2017-01-12 08:46 pm

Figured it out

I've been obsessed with watching Skyfall the last few days. A, because Bond & Q and the snark, and B, because I have this draw to a specific exchange:
M: Is this where you grew up?
James Bond: Mm.
M: How old were you when they died?
James Bond: You know the answer to that. You know the whole story.
M: Orphans always make the best recruits.

It has taken me until about five minutes ago to figure out why, but, well, I might have come up with a possible crossover fic for this year's [profile] romancing_mcshep. I foresee many a lunch break at work scribbling frantically in a notebook while hissing at anyone who comes close.
aivix: (Crazy)
2017-01-12 10:38 am
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The cat is away

The mice will play: we've got a few minutes downtime at work, so I'm reading fic in our instrument room.

If only I had enough time to do some writing...
aivix: (Sleep Nao)
2017-01-10 08:04 pm

The semester begins

While I'm not ready (in any way) for this semester to start, it's a good thing I'm getting back into the thick of it. One of my coworkers fractured her elbow and has been unable to do much with her arm because of the pain (why do human doctors give us ibuprofen and think that's enough?), so I've been getting plenty of training in as I've had to be tech and assistant. There was one day that I was putting IV catheters in every patient since our other tech was tied up with a dental, another where I was drawing blood like a champ. And tomorrow I'll be doing anything and everything that I'm comfortable with as we've got a too-full procedure schedule.

Downside: I've had a headache for 36 hours and neither NSAIDs nor my migraine meds have done more than take the edge off. Hopefully, this won't interfere too much.

My Skyfall kick is seeming to turn into a bit of remembering why I loved Bond/Q. I've rewatched the movie a few times now and been going through various rec lists of fic. I don't feel like I have a good grip on Bond's character, so I don't know if I'll be writing any. But, well, it's possible that I may have few thoughts on fusing elements into an AU with one of the fandoms I'm vastly more comfortable with. We'll see.

I discovered a community on DW similar to [livejournal.com profile] comment_fic called [community profile] fic_promptly. I figure if I'm going to broaden my horizons with the journal sites, I might as well try to find comms I'm interested in hanging out at fic-wise. If only there were more kink memes.
aivix: (Stupidity Hurts)
2017-01-10 12:55 pm
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LJ/DW app?

Does anyone know of a good app/client for mobile? I've been using LJ's own app, but it obviously doesn't work for Dreamwidth and has suddenly stopped refreshing. Since I do a lot of thinking and mental writing for prompts and fic during the day (read: when it's q-word at work), the app is helpful.

And using chrome is a damn power suck.
aivix: (Coffee & Writing)
2017-01-08 07:32 pm

Putting on my writing pants

Hello and welcome to the new friends I've made on DW & LJ. :D Now that my extra long work week is over, I can get my 2017 "Post & Comment More" goal moving along.

Well, since I mentioned my long week, I am exhausted and glad it's over as it was capped off by the deluge of snow that I hadn't even known we were getting: I drove home at the tail-end of it, but the roads were terrible. I never made it above 30mph or 3rd gear, but thankfully I have snow tires on the Revenge or I would likely have been steering a sled instead of a car. It was worth it though to finish out my Saturday getting to experience a power outage at the bar with my friend A.

I expect this week isn't going to be too great either, but improved upon: our ultrasound that broke on Tuesday is expected to be fixed Monday (fingers crossed), our new surgical sink was installed with about twenty minutes to spare before we had to get Surgery set up for a procedure, and we may have figured out why the boiler is erroring and not warming the building/water. The staff is back from a rotation of vacation time too. If we're lucky, nothing else will break for a few days and we can get ourselves organized, restocked, and back on the rails.

That said, we currently have 3 patients in the kennel, all cats. Two have kidney failure, one has pancreatitis, and no one wants to eat. I'm hoping to find at least a few empty bowls when I get into work at 7am, although I'm not expecting it. I might stop at the grocery store on the way in to pick up some different flavors/textures of foods for them.

I did get a few fills written for prompts on [livejournal.com profile] comment_fic on the nights I didn't get home and fall right into bed:
• Stargate Multiverse Hogwarts AU: Rival Quidditch captains
• Stargate Multiverse Deaged AU: "Do you ever take a moment and look up at the stars and think about your life and just how stupid you are?"
• NCIS Post-Plague AU: Caught outside on a cold, blustery day

I have a few prompts open to work on tonight, including an sQ/SGA fill. Admittedly, I made the mistake of reading some Skyfall Bond/Q fic earlier while setting up an e-reader with epubs from AO3, so it's possible that I might end up writing some of that instead.
aivix: (Smile)
2017-01-01 06:09 pm
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Home & Rec

I'm home from Florida and back in 40 degree temps, much to my chagrin. That said, I am exhausted like I've never been before: our plan had been to leave FL on a 7:55pm flight or the 9:50pm if we couldn't make the earlier one. (Mom works for an airline so we're able to move from flight to flight if needed.) Well, we didn't realize as we cleaned up the condo and packed up our stuff, that both flights were delayed. We didn't get on a plane until after 12 (Airport New Year), we weren't in the air until 1am. Unfortunately that meant we didn't get home until around 4:30, and while I slept until 11:30, I still feel wiped out.

Which is probably why I've been unable to focus on things for more than a few minutes at a time. I've been looking at prompts on [livejournal.com profile] comment_fic, but stringing words together coherently isn't happening. I did post a fill (yesterday? Friday?) that was NASA AU here that I need to get onto today's lonely prompts post, though I always feel silly posting one lone fill.

I did manage sit down and (at intervals) read Secret Ingredient, which was my gift from [livejournal.com profile] sga_secretsanta this year. It's a Kitchen Confidental (Movie, 2007) AU, with Rodney, John, and Madison. It seriously made my day. If you haven't read it yet, I really cannot recommend it highly enough.
aivix: (Epic Shit on the Internet)
2016-12-31 08:34 pm
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Migrating to DW?

From the sound of it, everyone is starting to mirror themselves on DW in response to LJ now being hosted exclusively in Russia. I, myself, am torn on this: I feel like I should start mirroring if not shifting over to DW, but having had a DW from the time the service started up, I was always more comfortable on LJ.

I do have an account there under this user name. When I swapped accounts from my old LJ, I figured I'd give DW another try. I didn't get farther than setting up a few things and then went back to paying sole attention to LJ, mainly because I couldn't afford to pay for both services and, again, more comfortable here. I guess I'll have to look into it though, if that's where everyone is headed. :/

(This post brought to you by today's scrolling through the friends feed/[livejournal.com profile] romancingmcshep poll.)
aivix: (First Class)
2016-12-29 11:37 am
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Betwixtmas

Happy "it's between Christmas and New Years and that's all I know" week.

I set myself up with a new layout for Christmas and then realized, well, I have the time now to change it out for the new year. I should have waited for January because holy crap, LJ coding is much more difficult than I remember. I was using a layout supplied by one of the layout comms, but just modifying it to get what I wanted was like a crash course in css all over again.

At least it's mostly done and in a pretty teal & yellow (with a hint of purple) color scheme. I need to get my tags situated to the currents the way I want, but that's a battle for another day.

I've been in Florida since Christmas Eve, grateful that I was able to keep my week's vacation as planned. We stayed at Bay Lake Tower in Disney for two nights, then went home to the condo. The weather has been amazing, if a bit hot for me: I'm a girl who likes it no warmer than 75 and it's been getting up to 80-85. Still, no real rainstorms and a good breeze everyday. If hadn't just spent three hours working on the LJ & uploading pictures to FB, I'd post some here.

We've been to all 4 parks and Downtown Disney Springs, all were far more crowded than I care for. I usually am here in the off-season, when you can walk a good distance without walking into other people; I was nearly mowed down by a pre-teen pushing a stroller in Magic Kingdom last night and was stepped on in EPCOT. Animal Kingdom, likely because it was Christmas Day and everyone was waiting to get into MK, was the only one where I was able to move around without bumping into someone. But I'm always glad to be here, so I can't complain too much when I was able to get fastpasses for Toy Story Mania and Expedition Everest. (And got a cupcake from Erin McKenna's.)

I do need to go questing at the Studios for a set of Star Wars light up Mickey Ears. I've been seeing them all over and have told my family that even if I only run in, find them, purchase them, and leave, I'm happy. Seriously, they have X-Wings, TIE Fighters, and the Death Star, the nerd in me requires them.

That will likely be tonight or tomorrow, however, as someone in the house is sick. I can go out on my own, but they said they'd like to go with, so we'll see in a few hours what happens. Otherwise, that means fic. There were some awesome prompts that went up on [livejournal.com profile] comment_fic's last few entries and I've got some ideas brewing.